Sashiburi da ne? It’s been too long my friends… and after all that talk of sticking to my blogging! -_-’ Gomen ne. I abandoned you once more in the run up to the new school year that began in September 2008, and I must beg your forgiveness my precious readers.
See, at the start of school I ran into a lot of homework and coursework – I’m sure most of you know what I’m talking about – and in all honesty, I cast my lovely little blog to one side, despite the obvious unfairness. At the same time, I can take a small pride of sorts in that it was the ideal thing to do for my education, and that I truly believe I won’t ever abandon this blog completely – though this sort of wave like behaviour will continue throughout my time writing to you. Apologies in advance ^^’.
But hey, I’m back once more! Pretty good stuff methinks. Today I’ll be telling you about what I’ve been up to in my absence – I agree, it’ll most likely be a relatively boring ordeal, but grit your teeth and be patient – it seems like something I have to do – plus, I reckon some of you may have a vague interest in what’s been going on. Personally, I’m a rather curious person (hopefully not nosy though ^^’).
So for a while, as I said, I was busy with school – twas relatively normal, nothing too exciting, just everyday life. Then around October I developed a slightly busier social life – I have to admit, going out almost every weekend and quite a lot over half terms was really great! But, as with even a glimmer of possibility, that quickly came to an end -_-…
A number of things happened on 21st November ‘08, and although it was real fun at the time, there were some repercussions, and bitterness grew. Soon, things were said that probably weren’t meant, but regardless due to pride and hurt, there was a parting of ways.
For me, it was a rather unpleasant month or so that followed, but I managed to get through it by hanging out with someone I’ve come to see as a precious friend. Then Christmas came around, and following the idea of the spirit of kindness and goodwill, I decided to swallow my pride and “forgive and forget,” though I still believed myself to be the wronged person.
I sent a text to one of said people reading something like, “hiya – omg, this is so random, but I suddenly thought of you and thought I’d send this.” I think I also asked how things were, but you get the gist I’m sure. I suppose I was foolish to expect a response – perhaps I thought too highly of the person and that made me blind to their many faults, but that’s how I’ve always seen my friends – they could do no wrong in my eyes.
I’ve now heard from people around me that they believe I was probably being taken advantage of for my good temperament and kindness – that the people I’d feel such warmth for, weren’t really my friends at all, let alone my best friends. How sad. Especially since we’d hung out together through five years in secondary school, and another year and a bit in our current one. A waste…
When I sent a second message on Christmas Day to that person once again, I didn’t receive a reply. For me, this was her last chance, and since then I admit I had strong feelings of resentment and dislike – for me, who’s too bubbly and dense to hate anyone, this was a pretty new experience, but definitely one I’ve learnt from thus far.
Haha, I do sound angsty, don’t I? Actually, that passed rather quickly, though I probably thought about what happened more than I would have done due to a long stretch of illness. Actually, as I write this, I’m still under the weather, though definitely better
. My sinuses started to act up in very early January – about the 7th or 8th, and before I knew it I had an unbelievable non-stop headache, and other stuff besides. The painkillers I was prescribed were kinda dodgy too – they made me dizzy and queasy and oh so sleepy – in the end I stayed off school for about a month!
Now half-term’s starting, and with all my teachers at school promising to help me catch up I’ll be working hard this coming week. With my history of illnesses in this school – about a month in December 2007, another two and a half in April due to appendicitis, and now this one through all of the current term – the teachers are being amazingly sympathetic. I’m really glad they’re gonna help me out, especially since exams start in May! Oh, man…
That’s more or less brought us up to date
. Since November I haven’t spoken to those two people who I had what could be called a disagreement with, and I suppose it’s strange, but the only thing I truly miss is talking to them about anime. In other words, I think I’ll live, lol.
At any rate, the next few months will be all about school, but my recreational time will now be blogging and PS2-ing, so a yay is in order. Talking to those said people definitely took a lot of my time – it’s cool that I’ll have more of that now.
Now, about the change in blog name and appearance. During my month of illness I started to watch an anime I’ve been considering for a while but had no time for before – Shugo Chara. It’s been really sweet, and Amu’s supposed ‘I don’t care’ attitude inspired me. So I decided I’d be “Cool and Spicy,” lol. On the other hand, as Utau is by far my fave character in the anime, I added Meikyuu Butterfly to the blog name – thus you can call me the “Cool and Spicy Meikyuu Butterfly,” or just plain Viz
. As for the rest of the blog I discovered the updated power of widgets, and decided to put my favourite girl from Vampire Knight, Touya Rima in the header, along with Senri Shiki-kun. I love the cross between Shugo Chara hearts, aces, clovers and diamonds with Vampire Knight – it looks pretty cool to me, so I hope you like it too. Please feel free to vote in the poll on the right! Oh, and you can chat to me (Meikyuu Butterfly) in the Chatterbox on the right.
One last thing – I want ideas for what series to blog. I’ll set up a second poll on the right, and if anyone wants to vote, please feel free to do so. If no one does, then I’ll be forced to ponder and choose something myself, lol.
Thank you so much for sitting through this! *bows head* Arigatou gozaimashita! Please wish me luck in catching up with school, and of course blogging. Until later my dear readers.
Viz signing out.
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